People seldom appreciate things fully until after they’ve lost them. This is a theory I’ve proven time and time again in my own life, and this week was no exception. You may have noticed the severe case of sun deprivation I’ve been experiencing. 
I recently read a very interesting article in the Sentinel on Seasonal Affective Disorder, which is actually a legit psychological condition, that I am now convinced I have, lol. It bascially ties lethargy, depression, and weight gain to lack of sunlight. I knew it!!!
We all take things for granted. For some, it’s their significant others. For others, it’s their families or their jobs. While I’ve been guilty of taking all those things for granted at one time or another, today’s epiphany has to do with the sun. El Sol. The light of the world. And not just it’s gift of light, but of warmth, and the ability to stimulate new growth…
You don’t know what you got til its gone. Amen. But along those lines, you also never realize how much you miss something until you lose it, it comes back, reminds you how much you love it, and then leaves again. You follow? lol I did not realize how much I missed the sun until it decided to come out and shine on Thursday… The first sunny day in I don’t know how long… The same could be said about Pono boy and my Godson Ola…
Thankfully this sunny day coincided with a visit from KC and the boys, so I got to spend all afternoon at the park, not wasting a second of the precious sunlight. So good for me on so many levels. But especially because I got some quality time with my Godson, one of the many loves of my life, who is getting so big, so fast. Ola and his big brother Pono are two other sources of light in my world that I had no idea I missed until they came back.
I spent 2 of the first 4 weeks of Ola’s life with him in Maui, and when I had to leave him at the end of those two weeks, that was the first time I ever really felt like my heart was being ripped out. What can I say, I am bonded to this child. But with them living in Maui, I don’t get to see them nearly as often as I would like. As the months pass, it’s easy to forget how much it hurts to be apart, but then seeing him again… It just reminded me of the hole in my heart that exists not having this child by my side, and how much it hurts to have missed some major developmental milestones in his life…
But eventually another storm will blow through, covering the sun, and the boys and KC will board a plane back to Maui. So what to do in the meantime? Cherish every second I have to bask in their light, even moreso knowing it will soon end. And vow, for today anyway, to not take a single second of it for granted…
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