Great, Now I'm Restless

by Stephanie Casher on August 30, 2006

So I’ve been home for a couple of weeks now… Slowly reintegrating back into the “real” world. This past weekend was actually my first full weekend home since July 1st, and it was a little strange. Strange because, by the time Saturday evening rolled around, after a full day of lounging around doing nothing, I started to feel restless and bored. Like I just had to get out of the house and do something. Now I refer to this as “strange” because the old me LIVED for her downtime. Two full days with absolutely nothing to do was my idea of heaven. The ultimate homebody, the words “bored” and “home” would never get strung together in any sentence I might utter.

It appears my five weeks on the road has triggered a shift in lifestyle that is turning out to be more permanent. All I can focus on these days, is where I want to go next . I daydream constantly about returning to Sedona and the Hot Springs, the itinerary for next summer’s road trip, and if its too early to make my hotel reservations for BEA in New York. I’ve even been kicking around the idea of taking a cruise in the Bahamas… After I get back from visiting KC and the kids in Maui…

I’ve got issues.

I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with this newfound itch to travel… Aside from being financially unreasonable (if not downright irresponsible), the more I reminisce about how good it felt to be “free” this summer, the more I want to just up and quit my day job so I can immerse myself in a carefree, nomadic existence. Oh yes, that sounds SO practical! That fits perfectly into my well-thought-out five-year plan. WHO THE HELL AM I?!?!?!?

Apparently a woman in the midst of an identity crisis.

I do not want to be held back by anyone or anything right now. Freedom is essential. There are so many places I want to visit… There are so many places I want to live. Seriously, I’ve browsed the real estate listings in Sedona several times since I returned home. I never thought I could live somewhere outside of California, and now I’m fantasizing about changing my address every three months and homeschooling my children so they can move around with me… I don’t know what is going on with me.

Needless to say, readjusting to the day job has been rough. Oh how I hate punching a clock, lol. I need to liberate myself from this monotony as soon as its financially possible. Really. And in the meantime, change my scenery as much as possible. Last weekend I left the house on Sunday to spend the day with two of my favorite things – my nephew Devin, and RENT, lol. I guess Bill and Jes saw RENT a few weeks ago when the show passed through SF, and Bill, demonstrating yet again that he is indeed MY brother, lol, fell all in love with RENT. Went out and bought the DVD, and was watching it when I got there. It was awesome. Though I must say the BEST part was when we got to the end and about half an hour later he goes “I think I’m gonna start RENT over again.” That’s what I’m talkin’ bout! So we all watched RENT like a happy little family, making sure to cover Devin’s eyes during Mimi’s stripper scene at the Kit Kat Klub, LOL. Good times, good times.

Ah well, I shouldn’t be pouting and lamenting the loss of my endless summer just yet. One more trip. This weekend I get to go to VEGAS for the last stop on the Soul2Soul Summer Tour. So much fun on the agenda, it’s gonna be off the hinges! This is just what I need to send this summer off in style – the open road, my girls, Tim and Faith, and SIN CITY (aka one of Steph’s favorite places in the world). I love Vegas. I love it even more when Tim is there. So excited am I.

Have a safe and happy holiday weekend everyone!

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